I was reading out of Genesis the other day and read a verse that hit my heart.
Leah became pregnant and gave birth to a son. She named him Reuben, for she said, “It is because the LORD has seen my misery. Surely my husband will love me now.
She conceived again and named her second son Simeon because “the Lord heard that I am not loved.”
A third son was born whom she named Levi, meaning ‘companion.’ She was certain that her husband would become attached to her after giving him three sons. Genesis 29 31-35
How horrible of a feeling is that? Trying to win a man’s affection. I can’t even tell you how many times I have done this. Never succeeding. Left feeling used, thinking what’s wrong with me? I gave this guy everything? Why doesn’t he call?
Where do you get your self-worth? Is it from those around you or is it from One who truly knows you and loves you (psalm 139 says it best) The only One who truly loves us and gives us our worth is God. He gives us our identity.
Our identity needs to be in Christ and I can only tell you from personal experience (and many of you know how I was before I got saved), but once I excepted Christ into my life, God started to show me how special I am. Only God can do that. There is nothing that makes me more at peace; more joyful, more confident as a woman then my relationship with Jesus and no one could take that away from me. If you only knew, if you only knew how beautiful you are and are seen in the eyes of God, you wouldn’t let anyone make you feel different. You don’t need to earn the affections and attention of those around you because God loves you and Jesus earned that acceptance and affection for you. Our identity needs to be anchored in Him alone because in Him we have everything we need. I am realizing this more and more and it’s the most freeing, most beautiful gift I have ever been given. Thank you Jesus.